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[Nov. 25th, 2003|10:38 am] |
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this is a big waste of time and energy. hiatus for a month. lets see if i can do it. hahahha. ill write a big entry. with big letter bolding. saying in red and green "merry christmas, ho ho ho" uhm. no nothings wrong. bye |
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[Nov. 24th, 2003|10:19 pm] |
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haha the other day i did this survey thing. and today i was over looking it. well i guess i read one of the questions wrong. it was "would you ever concider dating your BESTFRIENDS EX?" i answered "yeah. revenge is a bitch and a half and im the bitch and hes the half." haha i totally read it wrong. i misread it as "would you ever concider dating your EX's BESTFRIEND" so lets just clear things now. NO i would never intentionally date my bestfriends ex. i dont plan to. nor would i want to. again. ever again. lesson learned. those of you know what i mean. |
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| its me. me me me |
[Nov. 23rd, 2003|02:11 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | mandy moore - locke me in your heart. | ] |
~Firsts~
First best friend: preschool this chick named madeline
First real memory of something: jumping off the vanity dressers onto the bed, age 3
First car: toyota cressida. which i still drive.
First date: at a park
First real kiss: his name was chad
First job: at a restraunt. i helped bus tables
First screen name: mlle714
First self purchased album: hm.. madonna?
First person you known to have died: my moms uncle
First pets: i had a carnival fish whom i fed it dirt and cookies and it died. so i decided to cook it in the microwave and it popped. hahaha i was 3!
First piercing/tattoo: my ears
First credit card: macy*s
First big trip: vietnam february of 1996
First musician you remember hearing in your house: uhm my stepdad used to play guitar
~Lasts~
Last big car ride: socal to see finch
Last good cry: i dont even remember. probably 2 years ago
Last library book checked out: a bobbi brown makeup book
Last movie seen in theatres: Texas Chainsaw Massacre
Last movie seen at home: love down something liek that w/ewen mcgragor and rene zelweggar
Last beverage drank: raspberry iced tea
Last food consumed: fried chicken steak with gravy & toast
Last crush: his name was josh
Last phone call: i called yuki lastnight to tell her to tell marianne to come get me
Last time showered: yesterday morning
Last shoes worn: black & white hurleys
Last cd played: brand new
Last annoyance: my sister rubbing in my face she just baught a camera
Last disappointment: not seeing the cat in the hat yet
Last time wanting to die: uhm when my mom and i were on bad terms 3 years ago
Last time scolded: few months ago
Last shirt worn: my green 'ill try anything once, twice if i like it'
Last website visited: hotmail.com
Five details about your appearence right now.
-hair down
-plaid pajama bottems, green top (fashionable eh?)
-gap socks
-eyeboogers
-makeup-less
Five things you did today
-sleep
-woke up
-answer phone
-talk to the sister
-go online
ugh ill finish this when i have time....
Five things that everyone should know about you
-i have another side to me
-i am obsessed with eyeshadows
-most of my friends are asian and its not because i dont befriend other races, it just happened that way. im way open to multi-races and culture
-i think a lot
-im a lover, not a fighter
Five groups/artist you listened to yesterday
-britney spears (i got her new cd)
-that girl who sings that milkshake song in mariannes car
-brand new
-taking back sunday
-jarule
Five things that make you happy
-friends
-candy
-going out
-gifts
-boys i like
Five things that disgust you
-liars
-cheaters
-sluts
-mean people
-road kill
Five things you can't live without
-food
-internet
-family
-friends
-uhmm...
Five things you'll do when you complete this
-take a shower
-do my makeup
-do my hair
-go online some more
-go to work later @ 5:3o (what a crap ass shift)
Five things you feel right now
-my arms feel sore from all this typing
-my stomach feels blah.. uh oh. jk
-sad that i have to waste my sunday to go to work for 4 hours
-i feel as though im wasting a prime time of my life in salinas.
-dirty
Describe your...
wallet: its some sort of reptilia skin
coffee cup: i dont have a specific one i always use
underwear: its regular express bikini style
boots:2 pairs, both black.
CD in the stereo right now: im actually listening to my mp3's. mandy moore
hair: bangs pinned back. hair sloppily tied back in a siick bun/ponytail
Your Friends List
a. Ever dated anyone who was your best friend before?: no
b. Would you consider dating your best friends ex?: yeah revenges a bitch and a half. and im the bitch. and hes the half
c. Have you kissed your best friends ex?: not yet
Three Things That Scare Me
things popping out of no where
ghost
being murdered
Three People Who Make Me Laugh
my friends
bums with funny signs like 'why lie, i need a drink' (hes posted near boronda by the mall)
honcho people with like 4 butt cheeks. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2003|12:40 pm] |
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| |  awake | ] |
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| | madonna - this use to be my playground | ] |
last night went by like a big blur. one minute i was freezing my ass, the next my ass was burning.
we had went up to the mountains (so they say), up river road, to some 'party' an outside party where a bunch of ffa (i had mistaken it for afi the band at first when telling amanda whom i hadnt seen in sooo long) folks were all standing around a fire pit. soposely it was becky's birthday, but only to find out that it was this other girls (shannon's) birthday. so many faces i recognized but they all hung out with one another and didnt socialize much out of their groups. anyhow i never realized how bad those ffa people were. i always had a image that they were good kids. i guess it was just a big stereo type. those notre dame and salinas high girls who've i'd see at the mall with their granny's were pretty wild chicks.
anyhow somehow i ended up in the car with jayson and 5 other strangers. yes we all fit into a regular 5 seat sedan somehow. one girls name was aisha from salinas high. this boy named jake whom noticed that i had once gone to school with him, two other guys and a chick. dont worry we werent driving, we were in one spot. it felt as though we were doing one of those 'see how many people can fit into a car' kinda deals.
after the 3 hours of being extremely cold, or extremely hot from the firepit which forced us to make a 45 degree angle every 30 seconds we went to dennys, ate, and went home. the end. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2003|06:15 pm] |
i have really small eyes. i dont know if thats a good, or bad thing.
and i act like he doesnt exist. like hes a transluscent ghost roaming around. i dont know if thats the best way going about it, but i dont know what else to do about it. |
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| applying makeup for dummies. |
[Nov. 19th, 2003|11:28 pm] |
applying makeup for dummies - ugh yeah. yuki knows what im talking about. i feel honored that, but at the same time im liek sick ass bitch. its quite funny and ironic the way she acts around me and then turns around and tries to duplicate shit. oh yeah talk about being thinking shes all miss trend setter. bitch please.
so she hates him now. hmm can it be what i think it is? is she victim number 3? |
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[Nov. 18th, 2003|11:25 pm] |
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| |  indescribable | ] |
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| | mya - ghetto superstar | ] |
i have an confession. im in love with exboyfriends. no not my own exboyfriend. other peoples exboyfriends.
no not like i want their left overs. its just the reactions from the exgirlfriend that fascinates me. or maybe because i responded like a crazy psycho exgirlfriend myself. haha. funny stuff looking back on history. never again.
i also like being the friend of the exboyfriends new girlfriend. quite interesting. not that he was ever my boyfriend, but you know what i mean.
forgot to post some new pics. maybe another time when i have lots of useless time on my hands or something. balh. night hunnies. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2003|07:40 pm] |
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| | kid rock, sheryl crow - picture | ] |
today i woke up with an idea. why not go to monterey. only problem was i had class at 12-1. i couldnt decide if i should wake up super early and leave and come back to class or go afterclass. but after much thinking while half asleep, my deprived sleep body decided to go back to bed which left me no decision for myself to go before class but instead after.
so i headed up to monterey and began going to alvarado st. walked up and down the strip, or atleast half of it, and went back to my car. decided to drive some more towards cannery row for some boutiques & a shop for a gift for my dear friend yuki for her birthday (btw happy early 19th birthday. i love you!), which i didnt have much luck with finding any. so i drove more hoping to get lost somewhere in pg. i began driving towards 17 mile drive and i decided to turn around before actually reaching 17 mile drive and having to pay the fee. driving through pacific grove, i realized how cute the houses there are. i wouldnt mind living there what so ever. cute community. anyhow i didnt achieve my goal with getting lost. i quickly found my way back to the main road and went under the tunnel, and made a wish. yup. then i headed towards paris bakery to pick up some surprise pastries for the yukster.
overall today was one of those days for me to realize and appreciate the sceneric views i am able to easily grasp. it was so beautiful driving down the highway towards monterey and seeing the ocean. i love driving by myself long distances. keeps me in a peaceful mode.
we put up our christmas tree. its cute. not all i expected. i think we need more ornaments. or maybe theres too many ornaments. well its pretty. yeah. come stop by and look at it. and admire it. and love it.
tomorrow i promise i will have some new pics for user icons. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2003|10:07 pm] |
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| |  determined | ] |
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| | dixiechicks - landslide | ] |
gosh this song makes me feel so warm inside. gives me a little hope. yes its country. its dixie chicks - landslide. i know its old. but i dont know it gives me comfort. i like it. i also like that old sheryl crow and kidrock song - picture. it just reminds me of things. again gives me hope. for what? for uhm its a secret.
my hair has been very sloppy looking these past days or weeks. i dont know what to do with it anymore. my bangs are so choppy looking. my hair is at a length where i cant do anything with it, but im not about to cut my hair now. its growing. slowly. very slowly.
uhm yah i dont need a downcomforter anymore cause today i got one! woo. so scratch that off my list of things i want for christmas. now my bed is all pretty and white and pure. coolness. but its kinda lonely in my room so i dont know if im ready to sleep in there. i dont know whats wrong with me.
tomorrow im going to put up our chistmas tree. its so pretty. i know its not even thanksgiving yet. but im super excited to see all the pretty ornaments i baught looks like. i baught some more christmas ornaments today and a treeskirt. cute.
ugh i think its time to change my page color scheme because its really beginning to bug me. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2003|11:43 pm] |
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| | ja rule - between me and you | ] |
friday night at joeys = goodtimes. no not liek that sicko's. it was a kickback but it was fun. cant wait to see pictures.
today hung out with the girls. i actually saw all of the 6 girls today. but only 5 at a time. gr. haha. we went to monterey and ate at ellies. then came back to salinas to visit jasmine since johna was in town.
i ended up buying another mac eyeshadow palet. i swear i should just work at macy's so i can get the 20% off just for the makeup there. i spend way too much money on mac makeup its ridiculous. i also went to gap and got pairs of socks, and a pair of brown cordoroys. uhm my spending habits are going crazy again. someone please tell me to stop. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2003|08:33 pm] |
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| | DMX - let me fly | ] |
yesterday i ran over a cat. luckily it was dead already. but either way i ran over a cat. i freaked out as usual and began to think i was going to be cursed or something bad was going to happen to me. i felt the bones under my car and it was "tha dunt tha dunt", it was sick. i had been trying to avoid the carcass on the road for days, but yesterday it was inevitable for me go around it coming out of the parking lot near pot belly deli. sickning. jayse suggested i move the thing out of the road with a shovel. i say no to that. sickning. makes me want to puke.
also made me think. can i see myself being a veterenarian. dealing with animals instead of human patients? would it be any easier? hmm interesting.
also made me think, do cats really have 8 lives? or was it 9?
-some guy in my painting class (old fart) was getting a little personal with me. i felt really uncomfortable. i just wanted him to shut up and go away, but being me i hate putting the other person in an uncomfortable situation. instead i let myself feel uncomfortable and let him say whatever he needs to say.
-the other day at work this guy (once again an old fart) came up to me to compliment me. i thanked him and thought it was just a friendly gesture until he asked when was the next time i was going to work. he then said that he was going to drop off his buisness card so we can 'do lunch'. i dont think so.
-yesterday at the bowling alley some guy (another old fart) whistled and tried to get my attention. sheesh whats more annoying then people whistling to try to get a girls attention. or when you pass a group of filopino guys they start clicking their tongues. or when you pass a group of hispanic guys they start going "sssp, ssp" ahhh. i hate stereotyping groups, but thats basically how its been
whatsup with these old middleage men trying to hit me up. sheesh. sick. |
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[Nov. 12th, 2003|11:31 pm] |
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| | dream feat. p diddy & kain - this is me remix | ] |
ive attempted to write 3 entries today. but my words didnt come out right so i logged out.
one was about how happy i used to get when my teachers would put stickers, stamps, or a happy face on my classwork. doode those little things made me so proud of my work. i used to try and duplicate all those good job things teachers did.
another was about how i want to be a baker and own my own pastry shop. i want it to be that place where kids tell their mom to go grocery shopping at because the bakery's right next door. a place where people meet up with one another to catch up on so and so and what not.
and the last one was about how when it comes to friendship with girls its full of drama, but all my friendship with guys are so opposite of that. even at work it shows and the drama doesnt even concern me. tonight was fun, hung out with the boys & vikki (who i rarely ever get to hang out with, so it was cool) no other girls were there except for these two teenyboppers. vikki and i were pretty much annoyed of them and began mocking them haha. what bitchs we are.
i would go more into detail and not so much skimming the surface but i have no patience to write everything out because i have so much stuff going through my head right now that it pisses me off when i think too much on this lj thing. |
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[Nov. 12th, 2003|12:46 am] |
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| | chipper | ] |
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| | n sync - the two of us | ] |
these n*sync songs are making me feel a little happy inside. hahahha
today yuki and jayson visited me at home. then went to jayse's and then he ditched us to go with john. fucker. j/k. maybe kinda. but then they made it up by visiting me at work x 2.
i made $35 from stepdad for driving to marina after work to pick up his truck. apparently he's extremely intoxicated or something.
oh yeah i have a christmas list this year hahaha and it includes:
a feather down comforter
a sweet small digital camera
a portable cd player with car adapter (since my car cd player inst reliable)
a new lifesize car.
and some new friends.
uhm yeah thats all i want for christmas. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2003|10:53 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | madonna - lucky star | ] |
i had that dream again jayse. but this time their were two of them; posh & caleb.
i was looking at my dance pictures throughout the years because im thinking about selling all my dresses on ebay, anyhow it amazes me how things worked out in highschool.
seeing my junior winterball picture with chad. how sick. haha. damn that was my wackest dress of all; long blue with black sheer, spaghetti straps, very simple. the shoes were a big no no. and my hair was so..... flat. i shouldnt have ever gone to that dance. it was a big waste. i dont even think that dress was worth the $80 bucks i paid for it. gah~
my junior prom at salinas high. i shouldnt have gone with the guy i went with, but for some reason i agreed. beautiful dress. it was a strapless lavender silver ending with a trail. it looked like a duplicate of the store window model posting they had at jessika mcklintock for a few months that year, but i dont think its a jm. got it for under $100 & at jm it was $300+
my senior winterball i went with omar. it was fun because this was my first friends dance. i got my dress at jessica mcklintock for a ridiculous price of $250+. it was pretty simple too. it was a red halter sparkly dress. the bottom of it was like a mermaid kinda deal; all tight on top, around the knee area the dress flowed outward.
my senior year prom, the most controversial, was with josh. it was pretty much the funnest dance i had, even though i collapse in the middle of the dance floor haha. i had been searching all around the area for the perfect dress. i had my sister looking in so-cal for a dress. anyhow one of the first dresses i tried on was at bliss boutique, the dress i ended up buying. it was a red dress with maroon & burgandy sequencing throughout the dress criscross back with a circle this in the center. it looked a lot like my winterball dress besides that the detailing for this dress was dramatic & it wasnt a halter. the dress was $200+ blah.
this year hahah maybe caleb will ask me to one of his dances. hahahahha.
anyways hopefully i can make atleast $200 from these dresses since they will no longer be needed. get rid of them before they are defitnately out of style. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2003|01:54 am] |
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i hate the taste of alcohol. i hate the smell of cigarette smoke. how do they do it with such ease?! unless they are playing a front. trying to act mocho. its sickning. bleh |
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| 'its beginning to feel a lot like christmas' |
[Nov. 7th, 2003|01:20 pm] |
its the first day like this and i love it. winter has always been my favorite season. the cold damp air gives me reasons to pull out and wear my sweaters, coats, & scarves. today it felt as though christmas was around the corner. holiday festivities, crowded malls, family get togethers, everything that makes me feel warm and comfortable inside.
or maybe i just like it cause i can finally sleep. sleeping in the cold has always been easier then sleeping in the warm humid air. or maybe its the calmness of sleeping to raindrops. or even cars splashing through puddles.
im not sure, or maybe i am. but theres something about this season that i love. |
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[Nov. 6th, 2003|10:20 pm] |
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| | sugar ray - when its over | ] |
i cant breathe, and it's due to my sickness this time.
i miss yuki, and johna, and jasmine. they are great friends for i know that i can always count on them if i ever just wanted to talk or hang out with them. i just know they'll be there for me if i ever needed them and vice versa. they wouldn't judge me but instead comfort me and make me realize the upside to every situation. for everything i appreciate their friendships soooo much. thanks guys i love you x 1000. <3 mimi |
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[Nov. 6th, 2003|05:16 pm] |
i want to get a piercing. but im too much of a wimp.
...ugh not pertaining anything to this post
but i think i have dad issues. |
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| ahhhh chu |
[Nov. 5th, 2003|10:42 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | john mayer - no such thing | ] |
ironic how things work. when im not sick, i ditch (rarely) and call in sick (rarely). when i am sick, i go to school & go to work. blah. my ears feel congested. along with my nose and throat. i feel like a piece of bologna. otherwise like crap. work wasnt so bad. my coworker, he babied and took pity for my sickness. thankgoodness i didnt have to work with any of the bitches, i mean any of the girls. i<3 my guy coworkers. kudos to them. |
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[Nov. 4th, 2003|09:07 pm] |
im sensing a fever coming along
runny & stuffy nose
sneezing
sore throat
fatigue
blah. something im not looking forward to.
today jayse melge and i went to chucky cheeses and played stupid games. that place isnt fun anymore. -ugh maybe its for little kids idiot- oh yeah thats right. |
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